Before I became a meditator I felt very alone - even in a crowd or sitting at a table with friends/family - at work or in a meeting ~ more so after my kids left the nest. I knew on a very deep level that I was lonely because I didn’t like the person I was alone with. I was in a state of looking for somebody or something else to fill a void. Then I found my transformational tool~meditation.
I have said many times that meditation saves lives. It saved mine. Just in this one area alone!
Meditation has helped me discover that being alone is not a problem. It doesn’t scare me anymore. I actually find that I need to be alone, that it’s ok ~ it’s safe and an act of self love and care no prescription necessary. Now I need to connect to the silence within.
One of the best gifts meditation has given me is that it has helped me discover that I like my own company!
It is interesting (small word) and very often “frustrating” to me how much my spiritual work continues to be centered on my unworthiness at 62 years young. How the person I want to love me the most, myself, spends so much mental energy trying to convince me that I don’t deserve my own love. I notice these thoughts so often throughout my day. Some examples: when I receive a compliment, a hug, passing a mirror, looking into a mirror, getting dressed, when I attempt to do something new, sitting with a hospice patient, teaching meditation, writing like this, writing a blog, not getting a response to a text, attempting to move my meditation business forward, spending money on myself, saying no to a request, speaking my truth, working out or choosing not to work out, having sugar, not having sugar, unplugging, hearing about your achievements or your accomplishments, seeing ads on TV, on and on! Unworthiness – my unworthiness – my spiritual work.
Louise Hay and Wayne Dyer introduced me to Abraham. Wayne would often say that he thought Abraham was the wisest teacher walking the path in this lifetime. One of his greatest gifts he said was the privilege to sit with Esther and ask Abraham questions. I know many of you are students of their work and if not, here is a powerful sample.
"Many people are approaching life from the flawed premise that if they work hard and struggle long and pay a big enough price, they will then be rewarded with financial well-being. And since they do not realize that in their struggle they are denying themselves alignment with the abundance they seek, when the abundance does not come, they attribute it to luck or favoritism that is being directed away from them and toward another.
But there is no luck or favoritism. Are you allowing or resisting, letting in or keeping out the abundance you deserve?
As you gradually train your own thoughts into those of positive expectati...
Peace of mind is independent from our physical condition.
I AM privileged to volunteer with men and women undergoing cancer treatments. When we meet I typically hear that they are waiting to be cured. Once cured they will be happy and at peace. I get that. I was once a member of this club. I know firsthand the fears they are facing and the desire to be cured. But waiting for something to happen is striving and striving is of the ego. Not of Spirit. The present moment is where our Divine Power resides.
I thank God everyday for my teachers and the insight I learned early on after my diagnosis almost 30 years ago! I was taught to desire peace of mind - not just cure cancer. I have been on this journey of learning how to have that inner peace no matter what is going on within my body or my outer world. And I found it! Meditation has been the single most transformational tool I have towards inner peace.
I have been graced to sit, listen, talk, cry, pray and meditate with...
When you’re at peace with your life exactly as it is ~ the age you are right now~ the body you’re in right now ~ your circumstances right now ~ you actually transmit that vibration of energy and it impacts every living creature including plants, animals and even babies ~
What are you transmitting today? Is it in alignment with your core value of wanting more peace? What do you think living creatures experience in your presence? Hmm...
The amount of times I have said this affirmation to myself are too numerous to count. I learned it from Susan Jeffers in my 30’s when I was going through a divorce with three kids under the age of nine and a part time job. I was a big time worrier back then and a crisis mediator. Everything felt like a 911 event!
I continue to say it whenever fear pops up. Right now I AM back in a course with davidji called Deeper Still. It’s his advanced teacher training and I am doing it again to continue to push myself out of some comfort zones and limiting beliefs.
This week’s assignment calls for a five minute video of ourselves teaching a meditation class. I know how to teach a class ~ I conquered that challenge a few years ago. The fear emotions surface when I see myself in the camera doing the video recording. Then submitting it wondering what my teacher and mentor will think.
If the definition of stress is how we respond when our needs are not met then meditation can be viewed as the antidote to stress. Did you know that after years of speculation and skepticism, meditation has now been scientifically proven to:
lower our heart rate
slow and deepen our breathing
boost our immune system
increase our growth and sex hormones
help us manage pain
expand our sense of well-being
and, slow the fluctuations of our mind easing the non-stop swirl of thoughts
You didn't? Well now you know. What are you waiting for?
Practicing everyday is the basic principle of the meditation spiritual path.
Whatever we practice the most is what we become.
Ask anyone who seems to be handling their life in a manner that you want to emulate what do they practice everyday? Not once in awhile. Everyday. This is how I started on the path ~ I found Louise Hay thirty years ago and believed her. That I could change my life and create the life I wanted with a few simple changes.
Are you constantly feeling uptight when life doesn’t seem to be going right? Are you reacting to criticism by constantly defending yourself? Do you find that you are constantly having negative self defeating thoughts? Do your thoughts become giant snowballs that get bigger and bigger and you can’t stop them? Are you constantly scaring yourself? Do you respond to everyone and everything throughout your day like it’s a 911 event?
If you are chronically feeling frustrated it’s most likely because you have PRACTICED being frustrated. Now...
When we find ourselves feeling stuck in situations, or when our affirmations aren’t working, Louise Hay teaches it usually means that there’s more forgiveness work to be done.
I meet so many people who feel stuck. In fact, before I learned how to meditate, I was one of them. I AM learning now how to master forgiveness ~ learning - practicing -
“When you don’t flow freely with life in the present moment, it usually means that you’re holding on to a past moment. It can be regret, sadness, hurt, fear, guilt, blame, anger, resentment, or sometimes even a desire for revenge. Each one of these states comes from a space of unforgiveness, a refusal to let go and come in to the present moment. Only in the present moment can you create your future. “
“Fear”, “regret” and “resentment” are fires that burn within me. I didn’t realize until now that it relates to me not forgiving someone or something that happened. Clearly I need to go deeper on this. I will look at it t...