Colleen M. Doumeng
Are you allowing or resisting , letting in or keeping out the abundance that you deserve?
Louise Hay and Wayne Dyer introduced me to Abraham. Wayne would often say that he thought Abraham was the wisest teacher walking the path in this lifetime. One of his greatest gifts he said was the privilege to sit with Esther and ask Abraham questions. I know many of you are students of their work and if not, here is a powerful sample.
"Many people are approaching life from the flawed premise that if they work hard and struggle long and pay a big enough price, they will then be rewarded with financial well-being. And since they do not realize that in their struggle they are denying themselves alignment with the abundance they seek, when the abundance does not come, they attribute it to luck or favoritism that is being directed away from them and toward another.
But there is no luck or favoritism. Are you allowing or resisting, letting in or keeping out the abundance you deserve?
As you gradually train your own thoughts into those of positive expectation, as you align with thoughts of worthiness and Well-Being, as you align with your true power by seeking good-feeling thoughts—you will no longer offer resistance to your own abundance. And when your resistance stops, your abundance will come. A flood of good-feeling ideas and possibilities will flow to you. Opportunities and propositions will be plentiful. And soon you will stand in knowing amusement that all of this was always there within your reach, but in your resistant state of attraction, you were not yet able to experience it . . . but then, it came—not because of your struggle but because of your ease."
Excerpted from Getting into the Vortex Guided Meditation CD and User Guide on 11/1/10
Esther (Abraham and Jerry)
My meditation practice is the transformational tool I use for training my thoughts. I was so grateful to be a student of meditation especially this week after receiving some tragic and very sad news. Upon hearing the news, which I learned over a text at six in the morning, I literally felt sickness in my stomach and major constriction around my heart. In the midst of that pain I was grateful for "noticing it" . I also noticed a "resistance" thought - "there's no way you can sit in meditation now - you feel sick" followed by another thought that said that's exactly what you need to do - "go sit with your feelings - do not turn away." The transformation for me is that I did not resist and sat down and meditated.
Like you, I have experienced the above body constrictions directly related to my thoughts many many times over the course of my life and my experiences. Fortunately, and through the grace of my meditation practice which helps me quiet my mind, I knew in this instance that "this too shall pass." I now have a knowing that everything is in constant change - especially my mind, my feelings and my body. Within an hour of this sudden news and my sitting in silence for a few minutes, I noticed the constriction easing up. As Abraham said above, "A flood of good-feeling ideas and possibilities will flow to you" - and they did! Suddenly I heard myself repeating something Wayne taught me to use whenever I felt separated from God, or "Source", (fill in with your name for the Nameless, or how about - use this when you feel like you are on "shaky ground") : "I want to feel good, I want to feel God." Just the simple repetition of these few words along with introducing "pattern interrupt" breaths continually throughout my day, having the courage to turn towards my pain and acknowledging my feelings, the constrictions started to ease. I found myself moving back towards my center, to balance and well being. My breathing got better, the pain around my heart lessened and I became clearer mentally.
My meditation practice has cultivated my ability to train my thoughts. It allows me to practice becoming more of an observer and a witness to them, with no judgment. Meditation allows me to practice acceptance for what is happening in this moment not resisting and closing down. It allows me to practice surrendering. Surrendering to what is unfolding right here, right now, eyes and heart wide open to this reality. To see more clearly all the abundance available to me in this very moment. Meditation allows me to find something to be grateful for in the midst of my suffering. Meditation allows me to observe how these thoughts are impacting my emotions and to be with them - not deny them or judge them - that was sooo yesterday. When I AM sad, I AM sad. It's ok. Self love needs to kick in now. It's why I have been practicing it for decades. What good will come out of me pretending and reacting rather then reflecting and simply being with it all as it is? Anxiety? Doubt? Lack of trust? Experiencing my old habitual self defeating habits of reaching for non nourishing coping mechanisms? Whopping migraines and sleepless nights? Probably based upon my past history but no thank you. I have learned too much. I know who I AM now. This is why I get up and go to meditation every morning - these are the moments where I know my practice is helping me align with abundance and well being. This is why I meditate on those days when I dont feel like it.
Tonight I will attend a wake and practice more of the above mantra - "I want to feel good, I want to feel God." My intention is to be an instrument of peace.
May your suffering ease. May you have peace in your mind. May you have peace in your heart. May you have peace in your body. May you be free from any pain.