Colleen M. Doumeng
I love this letter I found in one of my books this morning!!
I think I figured out what it is that I don’t like about roller coasters. I like to be in control of everything I can, and when a machine is controlling where I’m going, what I’m doing and when I stop and start, I get scared. It’s like when I’m talking on the phone, I get to decide when I want to get off, but on a roller coaster, I just have to stay on until it’s over. That’s what scares me, that I’ not in control. I mean I don’t care when it stops and goes but thinking that I’m not in control is scary. Anyways, I just thought I could share that with you. I love you a lot and can’t wait to talk to you about this idea in the morning! Always, Jul xoxoxoxo
My expectations create my attachments. They create a desire, a hope for something in the future to turn out a certain way. This moment in my life, this challenge that I am facing along with the entire world is revealing and reminding me every day that I have zero, nada, control over how the future unfolds. I have no control over who may or may not become sick, what will happen to the stock market, my husband, my kids, the weather and so on.
The more I resist this moment and insist that things need to be according to my expectations, the more I lose my peace of mind. I more I suffer.
The Buddha teaches us that pain in life is natural - suffering is optional. The Buddha also teaches that I hold the power within me to end my suffering by letting go of my need for things to be a certain way in order for me to happy and at peace.
Pema Chondron teaches us that each day we are given many opportunities to open up or shut down. “The most precious opportunities presents itself when we come to the place where we think we can’t handle whatever is happening. It’s too much. It’s gone too far.
We can meet our match with a poodle or with a raging guard dog, but the interesting question Pema says is, what happens next? This Very Moment Is the Perfect Teacher.”
The Recovery Movement teaches - Let go, Let God.
So many lessons today ~
Today I let go. I let go and let God. I choose to be happy and grateful. Thank you, God, for everything. I am willing to grow and learn. I am perfect health. I trust.